Fantasy: Cum Filled Panties

Hello,

   I've been gone a while, or well... That's an understatement. I'll explain a little more in depth at the end of this post so those who don't care don't have to read it.

   For a long time I've wanted to indulge in this fantasy. I remember seeing it somewhere randomly, I think in a set of pictures I had downloaded from a torrent site. The moment I saw it I was instantly fascinated, I'm of course referring to the title fantasy, and that is cum filled panties. I've also noticed a recent spike in videos of this fetish. If I had to pinpoint why I like it, I don't think I could. I imagine it has to do with my submissive tendencies, the idea of being forced to wear panties smeared with cum all day or even just for an afternoon is simply intoxicating. I reached a point where I could resist the urge no longer and sought to make the fantasy a reality... Sort of.

   I went online searching for any way to make it happen, and finally I found a dildo that would simulate a climax and squirt fake cum when stimulated enough or in a certain way. I waited anxiously for many days, hoping it would come... And it did... Two weeks later. Yes I was upset, but none of that mattered because I finally had the resources to make dreams reality. I sat down with the dildo in my hands, it was much bigger than I had expected, but i couldn't let that stop me from doing this. With a lot of lubrication and some slight pain, only at first, I was able to fit the tip inside of me, The hardest part was out of the way, and now I just needed to get it to cum inside of me and slip on my panties.

   Minutes went by, and nothing happened, so I kept going, my head spinning wildly with thoughts until finally it happened. I was stunned for a moment, the sensation I felt was unfamiliar to me. There was no time to sit and dwell on it, so I quickly snapped out of my trance and slid my special panties on, I chose a type I usually don't wear, as the ones I usually wear have little surface area to keep the liquid inside. After a few minutes, the panties were filled and I put on a night gown. The sun was just falling below the horizon and there were chores to be done, so I went about them in the usual way. I felt dirty, the squishy wet feeling was overwhelming everything else. I felt fabric sticking to me everywhere I walked, usually that feeling annoys me, but it was different this time, it felt good. Yes I felt very dirty and I had the urge to take a shower, but at the same time I felt pleasure I felt like in a way, I was the submissive of a Master or Mistress somewhere and I was being forced to wear these panties as a punishment. I found myself rubbing my thighs together as I did the dishes just to feel the sensation I felt as I walked. So many thoughts I had, wishing I could be pranced around on a leash like a pony as I wore them, wishing there was even more cum inside.

   That was my first experience with this fetish, though I have had more sense that day and now own multiple cumming dildos. Maybe someday I'll make a part two to this past, and talk about the other experiences I've had. If that's something you, whoever's reading this would like to read about, a comment would be helpful so that I know how many people are interested.

   (Now for those who care, I'm still not sure what I'm doing with this blog. I might abandon it, I might delete it, and I may keep it forever and continue updating it, I just don't know yet. For that reason among others, I'm not sure when/if there will be more posts and I hope... I hope...)

      Bound Rose